teenie before tweenie..

TICKED!

2010-09-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

visa ticked!

accommodation ticked!

these 2 things that I worry the most finally I have get over it!!!

and...

I can FLY now!!!!

reality...

2010-09-12T20:11:00.000+08:00

am no longer a little girl anymore,

i'm nineteen.

this is the reality....

every step and every decision that is make,

is one step to the real world.

WAS the first day...

2010-08-16T21:58:00.000+08:00

yesterday was KTJ first day of new term! This makes me so wanna go back to KTJ >.< i just miss KTJ every single bits and pieces...I still remember vividly in my mind how was my first day of a new term in KTJ!!!
still remember that i am always 1 of the early birds reaching KTJ as i had to fly across a deep blue sea =S but slowly more and more people arrived and the house getting merrier and merrier =) and we always hug each other when we met each other, it was like we have not seen each other for ages...haha! and once lee hui, xin yi and yong arrived, we always bump into each other room yelling at each other and our girls' talk begun..updating each other...ha!!!!how fun would it be!! And i could not forget that how nice were they, because they always come back with delicious food so we always don't go for dinner on that particular day!and we usually ate till our stomach blotted =.= and down to the pantry at that night i always see farah, nini, raya and ashley giggling while eating at the pantry...by the way, i miss mi sedap a lot!!!!and can't forget that i always meet the king during social hour cause it seems like being ages we have not met each other for each term break...haha!!and honestly, i always feel so excited when it comes to first day of school..haha!!i know this sounds wrong...it was because i could see all my friends in my physics, chemistry and double math class...and i could non-stop disturbing and annoying them!! i just miss those time...

I miss my first day of the term in KTJ...and if can i want to go back now!!!=)

keep on believing...

2010-08-14T10:40:00.000+08:00

results were out 2 days ago....i could not get what i want. so, of course i could not deny that i felt so upset!!!am still waiting for the result for my 2 math paper...this time i really hope that i can make it...i really really hoping for it...but, anyway i know that upset will bring me no where...everyone told me that i will be okay. people who care about me out there don't need to worry bout me so much...i am fine=) thank you so much to my friends who had comforted me that day especially yong and ''the king'', i will not feel better without you guys..Now, i would like to believe in miracles that will happen to me, believe in God and have faith in Him. So, i am no longer upset now cause i cant change the fact out there...

Mr Lai had forwarded and email to me yesterday morning....and now it is in my favourite verse list..

''Fear not for I am with you, do not be sad for I am your God.

I will strengthen you, I help you, I will raise you up with my power hand''

Isaiah 41:10

just keep believing....*smile*

the judgement day

2010-08-11T23:04:00.000+08:00

the day that i do not want to come most has finally arrive. It just left few hours to go and everything will be known...my future. Have a mix feeling right now as i really care how is the outcome will be. I know i did not do well but i have not prepare myself for the worst situation...

i guess...i have to learn to accept it whatever the outcome is...

bless me =)

2009 gone..2010 comes...

2010-01-02T22:24:00.002+08:00

2009 has now became a history..

and 2009 had welcomed 2010..

thinking bout my 2009, was indeed a great year for me..stay away from home to do my A-level in a boarding school...no regret getting into tt school! plenty of memories...bitter and sweet from the beginning of the term till the last term...the most worthwhile was i met plenty of friends...we had shared our happiness together and went through hard times together...we are indeed like a family=) am very happy that i have my vy vy vy good roommate..HUI HUI...best i can say!cant forget tht we always camwhore when we r bored, we lay down and talk till we are sleepy...do stupid things in the room...and moreee...so...this coming term we gonna get the single room but still consider roommate i guess coz we get to share the same bathroom!!!! and met YONG YONG tooo...we always talk ''heart to heart''..haha..coz we are the eldest in our family so usually we got the same opinion...a vy smart girl..like to ''tush'' ppl...haha...hope u get into cambridge!!!n u r the house captain now....i fully support u!!! and...met the other good friend of mine too...is YI YI!!!talking bout us, we cant study under the same roof, coz we will end up talking and be crazy!!cant forget that we laugh whole night long for 2 hours???if i am not mistaken...haha!of coz i dont met them only...there are too many of them(elstan, farah, raya, spy, tj, edvin, ho, sammy, yeeyee, yeru etc.) i cant list it out...will do a post in the future=)

hmph...indeed, i miss 2009...seriously!!! from the beginning once we were strangers and now become buddies...cant forget the moments during prom night, obs, the melaka trip...and moreee!!! and.. in the late year...have giving someone sweet dream every night i guess=P

so..

2010,

gonna be a year that is going to be full of challenges,

extremely important exams are coming up which are going to determine the future...

hope everyone can get what they want!

and....hope the bonds between u and me wont break!!!

*wink*

so YESTERDAY!!

2009-12-06T20:26:00.003+08:00

yesterday was quite a hectic day for me..got a msg from shirley early morning, she ask me to meet her in parkson bout 5...but i reached the it was already 6.30 =.= not bcz i wan to be late kay???

here the story goes..

i was dragged by my sis to go for a swim bout 4 o clock..so my dad send me my sis n my lil bro for a swim..so i had to tell shirley tt i am goin to join them late..haih...but anyway is okay...ccz it was such a long time i did not go for a swim=) so we swam bout 1 hr n we got back..right after i reached home i showered!!!!!

actually,once i finished shower my dad could send me to meet up with my frenz..but who noes????i was suffered from gastric!!my goodness..i couldn't walk!!!the pain had tortured me bout 30 mins den the pain gone!!!it was the worst ever!!!so...tts y i meet up my frenz late, haiz..but luckily the pain din get back to me..

hmph..so last nite i managed to meet up with sushi, yan, chai, marvin, melvin and SHIREY(finally!!)!! we had our dinner at 1 of the coffee shop..after tt we went back to parkson...we brought shirley to buy her slippers...haha..den after tt we walked around parkson...

we were so bored..so half way..marvin decided to do some lame stuff!he asked everyone of us to simply grabbed one formal dress and get into the fitting room and changed....then CAMWHORE!!!hahaha...but melvin n chai went off...dunno whr they go...

hmmph...so after tt ''session'' was over..i went back..otherwise i dun hav transport to go back...n last nite i reached home bout 12am =.= BCZ, my mum brought me n her fren for a drink...duh...and they talked for so long...

huh...so tired!!!!!!

is december=(

2009-12-03T02:58:00.002+08:00

flipping thru the calender, it is DECEMBER!!!! i still cant accept the fact that it is dec...i dun understand y time flies so fast???came to KTJ in this Jan..now???is dec!!!uhhh...3rd term almost end, left 2 days...everyone was busy packing things n eager to go back...everyone was looking forward to it...but not me...i am not tt sooo looking forward...u guys mz b thinking tt i am crazy...as i dun feel like goin back as thre is always a reason...

hmph...5 weeks of holidays only..n it will end super duper fast!!!

den right after i come back to school i hav to sit for plenty of papers!!!!!

n...i ll misss....=)

hmph...so the yr of 2009 gonna end so soon..in 1 month time...another half yr gonna leave KTJ...everyone gonna flyyyy...soooo dun like december as a yr goin to pass..2010 jz gonna come in a split of second=(

2 to go...

2009-11-13T17:50:00.002+08:00

Physics paper 2

Chem Paper 1...

tts y...

2 to go!!!

urgh...i cant wait....the 20th!!!!!!

and...

IELTS tmr =S

still left with

2 nites,

2 afternoon...

to study my Physics!!!!!

as tmr nite ..

am goin for JAWAHIR 15th anniversary...

haizzz...

i am out of time!!!

chem paper 3...done!

2009-10-29T21:25:00.003+08:00

''wan mei'' ar!!!!

chemistry paper 3 finally finish today...

i hope today will be the last time tt i touch the burette..the pipette..doin salt analysis..

urgh~

i hate doin experiment!!!

no patient man...

hmph...hope tt i wont resit my chemistry...

so..paper 3 finish..

time to work hard on my paper 2 which is on next week!!!

whoo..the paper tt i scared the most=S

i am back after 2 months...

2009-10-27T01:15:00.004+08:00

i noe i noe....is getting rust here and now i am back...am too lazy to blog recently and i dun feel like to blog too...dun have the mood to do it...

and now..i am here!!!!dunno y suddenly i got the feeling now tt i feel like blogging...almost 2 months of not blogging...many things happen in this short 2 months...happie moments???=)

hmph...exam coming up...goin to hav my vy 1st important paper on this thurs...hope i am ready for it..dun wan to resit man..haiz...my goodness...the 'dun-wan-to-sit-for-exam' feeling come back again when exam is around the corner..hate this!!but wad to do huh???i shud face the reality!!!

*confidence...i need it..*

gundu gundu...

2009-08-29T17:52:00.002+08:00

everything seems turn alright..

hope it continue turning good..

recover from sickness edi..i think!

hmph..still plenty stuff to catch up,

plenty stuff to study,

plenty stuff to do...

haiz..is goin to be a busy term..

*the gundu me*

(suddenly love the word gundu...haha..)

haiz...

2009-08-20T21:04:00.004+08:00

urgh..i hate dis 2 days...

things jz kept happen...

good thing happen in the firstday of skul reopen..

but after tt..not at all...

dis 2 days...reli got a hard time..

results i got them...

so..teachers divide us into 2 classes..

n i was not in the same class as my close frenz anymore..

i noe dis is a small matter..

but it jz bothered me...

den..lunch date..practical...dinner date for chemistry classes start..

so..goin to hav a hectic life starting for this week..haiz...urgh..

i think i gotta learn how to give n take..

hope these tough days ll jz go off soon...

hope i can cope with my studies..

hope i can use to it with my situation rite now...

hope everything went smooth after these hard days...

i just hope....

i got the KORBU spirite deep in my heart...

2009-08-12T00:27:00.005+08:00

KORBU consists of wei jie, rhu zen, choi, ben, azril, raja, nawas, khairil, sya, ishamam, zoe, fiza, sarah n me!!!n our instructor MJ n Marani..

let's start!!the first day in OBS, i remembered everyone jz do not noe each other as some of them were sitting in groups..as we were divided into groups randomly..so i still remember how was i like on tt vy 1st nite we reach thr..i was like 'how am i gonna to survived in dis 10 days??'cz none of my close frenz were thr..i was damn quiet in the 1st few days..

but luckily!!days past..the bond btweeen everyone of us became stronger n stronger..n i knew everyone of them edi..i began to noe how to joke around n talk

n laugh!!

teamwork!!

hmmm...recalling back..we had been thru ups and downs together...we had climbed all of the 3 peaks..which only KORBU did it..(am so proud..haha..)...and thr r so many

many leeches...yucks!and we had went for kayaking...abselling

...rock climbing..n lastly solo camping...(i hope i dun miss any of the activities..hehe...)

the peak 1145!!!i wont forget!!!

finally we reached the campsite before dark!!!we r so tired after the 1145m~

and...this me!!!!solo camping...relil look like a jungle girl><

''i got the KORBU spirit up in my head,

deep in my heart,

up on my knees,

i got hte KORBU spirit all over me,

all over me today ei ei!''

n by the way.. practically every morning b4 we need to gather in front of the flag, some of the KORBU members ll sing the above phrase(this is jz only part of it=))..haha..to show korbu spirit??hehe...or to make us awake?? miss those time man...haha..

we finally made it!!!!^^thanx MJ and Marali!!

oh my goodness..skul almost reopen n till now i still miss OBS...n i miss KORBU!!!!love KORBU...ahuuu ahuuu ahuuu!!!!

*sry....long time i din blog edi..cz lazy..n now duddenly go t mood to post bout OBS..so here i go!

OBS...10 days..

2009-07-15T10:05:00.002+08:00

10 days of OBS..

jz past in a split of time..

a conclusion i had made..

i observed...

the bonding between everyone grew stronger n stronger..

and i miss ya all!!

c ya all soon during the next term!!!

and now..

i am back in MIRI..

still a little..i kinda miss OBS..hee...

cz..10 days i live without books..hah..

i noe u guys muz taught tt i am crazy=)

i am still survive!!!

i'm officially 18!!

2009-06-26T19:24:00.004+08:00

On 23rd June, i am officially 18!!!

this yr,
i indeed had a vy special birthday..
coz it was my first yr i did not celebrate in Miri..
And..
this year i had celebrated my birthday in Malacca and KL..haha..
kinda special..

my bestie who is from Malacca,her birthday is 1 day earlier den mine..
so her mum had celebrated our birthday together...hehe..
On20th June,
we went to JONKER WALK,then, tt nite..
when before the clock struck 12,
her mum chase everyone back..and who noes??
auntie had help us celebrated our birthday!!

thanx auntie and uncle=)

thanx to yong, xin yi, hohoho, TJ, Elstan and edvin..
had a great time in malacca too!!!=)

and..on 23rd June..midnite..2/3 of Jawahir girls came into my room with a cute small little cake and sang happie birthday to me...love ya all...

Lastly...i would like to thank everyone who send me birthday wishes, gifts, surprises...
thanx so much..huggies!!

and now..i am really....really...18...

.....

2009-06-22T21:37:00.003+08:00

hmm..long time din update...spider web around..
hmph...vy lazy to upload my photos...
can say tt these few weeks i had enjoy my time to the fullest..
happy things happening..
like...i had went to MALACCA!!!!i love it!!!
ho, yong n edvin had become the tour guide..thanx ya!!
n i had went to prom...
n thanx yong for the overnight..
8 of us had a great fun...
hope i can go back to the time tt i wan...
dis coming weekend installation night..
den after tt OBS..hope i hav frenz in my group...
sad things happening as well.. like my result=(

ll upload my pics 1 go..as i am lazy now..hehe...

still...

2009-06-11T21:09:00.003+08:00

yes...my vy important exams had just over..hmm..i thinl i had screwed up some of my papers..anyway is over..

but now.. i still left with my internal exam..urgh..hate this..

gotta revise back my chemistry...as i did not touch for 1 week=)

7.00am..

2009-06-10T07:02:00.002+08:00

o hohoho..hahaha....first time on9 7.ooam in my skul...today i woke up at 4.oo am...wow...surprised me!!!i never did tt...haha..the internet super fast...the fastest sinced i am here..haha...

i think all of u muz be curious rite??y amelia can wake up so early today...??haha...

a night for princess!

2009-06-08T21:45:00.005+08:00

a yes??a no??
i could said tt i am in a dilemma for a few months..
at first..i said yes..
den all of my closed buddies did not wan to go..
so.. i changed my mind..
my answer..
was a no!!!

after i gave a no answer to everyone n they all questioned me..
y not yes??
okie..is a long story..
huh...making a decision whether wan to go or not jz like need to go thru thick n thin..
i am not firm enuf..
i do not know how much the comittee had wasted their saliva..
so..finally..
i said..
if who who who goes i go..
so now..almost my whole gang going..

finally...
i said...
"yes..!!"

this thing had drive me crazy for weeks n the ans at last is stil yes..haha..

so now...everyone talking bout what's the plan for this sat...ha!!
-make up??
-dresses??
-shoes??
-hair??

i cant wait!!*wink*

complicated...

2009-06-06T09:12:00.002+08:00

i had finish my C1 n C2 yesterday nite...
i had totally screwed up these 2 papers..
feeling badly,
disappointing,
terrible..
n horrible..

jz dunno how to describe my feeling..
did i over study??
stressed out myself??
think so much before exams??
jz knew tt i was super nervous before the exams start..

urgh~i jz feel bad about it..
my '6th sense" had told me tt i had to resit...

haiz..enough is enough..stop thinking bout it edi..
stil have C3 ya...

heee..

2009-06-01T21:07:00.000+08:00

actually is prep time now..i shud study now but not here...anyway it lefts 15 min to social hour...hope no one checking on me..hehe...

long time din come n blogging so i am here!!i noe not the right time..hmmm...honestly i am in a dilemma to go or not to go to prom...yeesh...i wan to go bcoz i never been to a prom n if i go 7 of my frenz might end up goin...not to go bcoz i think my trials r after my exam......urgh...shud i tossed a coin??hehe...

anyway..i am now happy coz finally i can hear every single sound n voices from ppl n everything clearly...n pull my ears long to listen to ppl gossip..haha..and do not need to keep say 'har??har??' heee..last saturday went for a second time swimming...whoo...5 yrs i din swim n now tt day it was my 2nd time...my lap time is getting slower n slower n i hav no stamina too now...n the worst thing...d water get into my left ear n i could not listen clearly to wad ppl said..so scared tt i ll turn deaf or infection which my fren n my mum told melike tt...hehe...but luckily my ear jz back to normal...haha...

n last fri i went for my 3rd time tennis session for this term..hehe..n i had played to the fullest..i played for 2 hours n i got tanned!!!anyway..i dun mind...hehe...

oops...is almost 9.15pm...is my duty today..gotta ring the bell...n goin to accompany frenz to tuck shop n go n breath the fresh air outside!!!

tata~

Zzz...

2009-05-26T16:03:00.002+08:00

sleep sleep sleep...
i had been sleeping for these 2 days..
getting lazy too..
dun feel like to study...
even doze off in class..
hmm...
dun sleep during prep time anymore...hehe...

common..i should wake up!!!!
move my butt n take a book n study!!!

=)

errr..

2009-05-26T15:52:00.002+08:00

last weekends were EXEAT again...n i went out!!!

my mum had flew from miri to kl so i met her up last weekend...if not because her cousin wedding i might not seen her till july...stayed at my relative house...it is stil the best being home tho it is not my house..had enjoyed my laz weekend so i ended up did not study at all...hehe...my mum jz flew back yesterday...actually wanted to wait till yesterday den came back to skul...but unfortunately i had to go schooling...haih..so sun i went back..who noes??i tot tt that day my mum ll sent me off...i jz woke up from my afternoon nap n my mum told me that she wont sent me off vack to schoold..so my aunt n uncle sent me back...haih..how sad it was tt moment...gave me a surprise from my nap...hmph...

hmmm..i had went out already few times dis month...jz hoping tt time flies n exams over i can go out again...hehe...

left 3..

2009-05-22T19:47:00.001+08:00

yay!!!i left 3 papers....3 core math papers...n i got 1 week plus to buckle up...so i can take a 1 nite off=)

jz finish my 2nd paper today...urgh~the paper was so different from past yrs paper..is quite tough too.....hope i can do well..n i no need to resit=)

life is about exam???

2009-05-15T19:27:00.005+08:00

life is jz about exams???awww...today is friday edi...n next wed is my exam!!!!time flies so fast...i juz realize tt i reli dun hav enuf time to study as..today i jz finish my physic test, tmr i am goin to have my core math test, n mon goin to hav my chemistry test...i noe is jz a test n it is not so important but i stil hav to study for it as i dun wish tt i ll flung in flying colours..n WED!!is the exam...n den next fri exam...i jz past my dis 2 weeks with examinations..haiz..reli hope tt i can dis well as i dun wan to resit!!!!!!

how i wish i stil hav a few extra hours...jz ONE..it makes a difference too...i noe is impossible..so now..every minutes count...

urgh~speechless..

happpie mother's day...

2009-05-10T20:47:00.002+08:00

i took a mini exeat dis weekend..n followed my vy good fren--xin yi to her 'relative' house with her parents..n now i am back to the school..

her parents welcoming me warmly to stay with them for 2 nites..they sent us back to our college too..at 2.00 pm today..n i am back here again!!hate dis feeling..the moment i got a stayed outside i dun wan to come back anymore..jz dunno y..mayb i escaped anything??or..??anyway, i dun reli noe wad is the real ans behind it..

before my fren parents left i gave her mum a hug...how good is it if i can give a hug to my mum on this special day..i knew it is impossible..as she is so far away from me..at that instant, tears welled in my eyes..i hold my tears strongly but...lastly it ran down again..cz usually on this special day, i used to celebrate with my family for the past few yrs..n this is my first yr i did not celebrate with her..sso..i think is normal for me to feel uncomfortable..

hmph...anyway...on this special day..i would like to wish her..

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY...
i hearts u...*hugz*

yay...

2009-05-06T17:22:00.004+08:00

yay!!! i am done with my trial...finally...a load that was so heavy on my shoulder i can put it down...time to relax...for only today!!!as real exams coming up on the 20th of May...haiz..

hmm...actually got plenty of pic wanna put up hr but i was too lazy..so now let me put up a few pic first...=)

the induction nite---->it was held on May 24th n it was held at the pool side in my skul..hmph..till now i den update..anyway..we had fun tt nite..every group did different kind of performances..my group had performed a dance called 'jaiho' from the 'Slumdog Millionaire'..we had learnt it in a short time n we manage to finish it..we did it vy well!!haha...my group members are tad jiunn, azril, izzudean, shihyu,ye ru, nadhirah, farah, and me!!!
*my group of frenz tt we always hang out most of the time*

*the four of us tt always stick together(tts wd everyone said..haha)*

^tts all!!!lazy to post the other pics..haha.. ^

is the 5th month of 2009

2009-05-01T20:59:00.003+08:00

i reli dunno use wad words to describe the time...today is edi MAY the 1st!!!!!y??i jz wanna noe y??y time flies so fast????jz too fast!!!!!!i wonder...i cant believe it!!!!

i jz finish my spm during last dec..n not even half a yr n now i am goin to sit for mybig exam which has to determine my future again...life jz dun go on without exam..haiz...next monday goin to hav my trials n after next next week goin to sit for my exams...dunno how it goes...

awww...C3 C3C3...M1 M1 M1...these 2 modules reli make me suffer a lot...jz gotta move on n do more ques!!!!hope i can strive for the best!!!!

fish fish!!!

2009-04-20T16:50:00.005+08:00

^the fishy n the hamster^

fish fish...u're 18!!!happy birthday my dear fish fish!!!hmph...cant celebrate ur 18 birthday with u...hope u hav an unforgettable birthday ya...hmmm...dis gurl used to call her zhi shang di ler...miss those time...reemember??hee...n noe wad tt day steambot???i realize tt u spread d disease to me loo...dunno y i become so lag..hee..k la...lastly wish u..

may ur wish come true~
stay pretty~
dun bcome so lag le...~
n...dun spread d 'laginess' to me o~
take care in adelaide!

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY again..!!!

back=(

2009-04-20T16:47:00.002+08:00

n now...
i am back to my college...urgh..so dun wanna come back here..
but...d day u dun wan to come stil will come...

=(

2009-04-13T09:32:00.003+08:00

2 weeks past...
goin to go bak to the 'jail' on dis coming sunday....i dun wan go back!!!!!!!
n...i want to hang out wif frenz but i stil got tons of hw....n mum dun wan to let me out too...yeesh..jz sick of study n hw!!!!
i so wanna get out of my house door!!!!!!!!!

i am back...

2009-03-30T16:10:00.002+08:00

finally...i am back at my home sweet home..dunno y so excited bout it when i was in ktj..jz kept hoping tt i can b at home as soon as possible..hmmm...3 weeks holz gonna stay here..not a vy good holz for me cz plenty of things to catch up cant play too much as i goin to hav my AS level exam after 3 weeks when i am thr...

so all the best to me!!!=)gotta stop my laziness disease...

2009-03-19T14:13:00.002+08:00

1. Name the people you tagged. (10) -
noone..jz ntg to do..hee..
2. Describe yourself in one word.
lazy
3. Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?
someone who really loves me
4. Have you ever loved someone before but never had the courage to tell him/her?
yup..
5. How if people reject your confess face to face?
how i dare???
6. God is giving u just 5 more minutes before going back to heaven, IF you love someone special, what will you say to that person?
i love u...and be strong!
7. What will u say to a person who doesn’t want to believe u?
fine=)
8. Was ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?
yup...
9. Do you have something special with you all the time?
all the time??no, i guess.
10. Long distance love ?
is a challenge
11. Best place to cry.
where thr is noone..
12. Who do you love the most?
family!
13. Tell us of your dream last night?
no dream...
14. Ever hated someone so bad?
nope...
15. The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard?
never heard b4..but small lies a lot!
16. The last person you had a beer with?
erm...beer o??
17. The last person you went to the movies with?
xin yi, kelvin, and ashley..we watched city of ember!!!
18. The last person you talked on the cell phone with?
mom
19. The last person you hugged?
my roomate, lee hui!
20. The last person you yelled at?
my roomate too...leehui..haha..!!
21. In the last week have you kissed someone?
nope!
22. Think of the last time you were angry, why were you angry?
i think i never reli angry a person b4..
23. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
i wan to study hard!!!
24. If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go?
united kingdom=)
25. What you hate the most?
somebody who i trust so much n betray me..
26. What would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
the past..i guess..
27. Five facts About Me :
cant stop laughing
wont spill my feeling though i am down
ll stil like ntg happen to me though i am so upset
pretend tt i am strong in mental but actually i am not
like to play n chit chat around wif frenz..
28. Five things that scare me:
exam
darkness
results
tons of hw
no frenz
29. Two Songs Playing in My Head Lately:
no songs lately..hee..
30 . Five Things I treasure in my life:
brothers
sisters
friends
daddy
mummy

gurl..happie birthday!!!

2009-03-16T17:37:00.001+08:00

hmm....the person in the photo on the right, ms. shirley chong!!!(张慈彩）the birthday girl!!!she dun like ppl call her chinese name..i long time din call le...haha...as is almost sound like seaweed...hee..i stil remember she dun like...hmm...knew her since i was in level 3, n till form 4 she went to perth to further her study...haiz...long time din c u le ler...honestly i miss ya..miss the time when we everytime talk on the fon=) haha..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

happy birthday ya!!!wish u all the best ya..n may ur wish come true..take care too...n now u r 18th!!reemmber b4 u went to aus what ccl said??haha...recall back slowly ya!!

lastly...a birthday kiss for u...muakz!!n hope to c u soon...(i noe it ll b a long long time)

090307

2009-03-06T16:17:00.004+08:00

me and the shortie, the birthday girl!!

another bou birthday!!dis yr goin to b d twelfth yr we knew each other...hee...hmmm...wiwiaaan the name of the shortie...sorry ya..long time din jio u le..hehe..but cute la...hehe..i long time din jio u le so let me jio 1 time k??haha...how to describe dis gurl ler??ermmm...i noe!!the 'le fei' queen!!she evertime vy le fei de...agree bou? she also everytime lack by few beats when everyone talk bout smtg..haha...but sometimes she is kelian loo..everytime disturb n kacao by ppl...cz seldom she her angry de...haha...

ms birthday gurl!!wanna wish u a happy birthday ya!!!a birthday song to u...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WIWIAN...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U!!!

may ur wish come true ya!!!n hope to c u soon!!!miss u girl...n good luck in everything!!!take care...*wink*

28-02-09

2009-02-28T13:00:00.005+08:00

oh..pretty lady,pretty lady walking down d street...oh pretty lady...n her goes d..vy pretty lady!!!!

is..

me n d birthday girl!!d latest photo tt we took...

SOPHIA MAH!!!a vy nice girl n always like to say cold jokes...ture???brilliant in study too!!hee..stil remember tt i always tumpang her car back during d past few yrs...thx a lot ya!!!knew her since form 1 but reli get to noe her since form 2 or form 3 tru pbsm de camp...plenty of memories...

now she is in adelaide now doin her further studies..so lazly wish u all d best!!n dun stressed urself so muc ya!!!good luck n may ur wish come true!!!miss u muc girl..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY again...n hav a SWEET 18th!!

juz too bored...

2009-02-15T10:44:00.002+08:00

after i read yong tao fu blog..now...make me feel like wan to write a post now..haha...actually i was lazy to do so...haha...

indeed...JAWAHIR is so so so empty..as dis weekend is EXEAT...everyone can go bak if they wish to..but for me??i cant...i got to stay here as my hometown is far far away...need to sit few hours of transportation den i can reach home n ferw hours again if i come bak here again...haiz...it was so so so empty...i miss d noise!!!

btw,yong tao fu...ur post reminded me of d midvalley trip on laz sunday..it was a new experience for me!!!it was d first time i traveled by ktm. it was not so cram when we went to midvalley but it was so like sardine fish when we wanted to go bak...i could not forget d scene...haha...we were squeezing here n there into d ktm coz it was quite late n we did not want to wait for d next round again..so we almost got squashed...haha...n ppl kept goin in n out of ktm when we reached some of d stations so actually we were standing in a circle n we kept rotating...n we kept searching of oxygen as we r so short..all d tall ppl had d chance to get fesh air...haiz...it was so funny...n unforgettable!!!haha...yong yao fu remember???hhaha....d scene...

happy valentine...

2009-02-14T16:01:00.002+08:00

hmph...at last i can said tt i am feeling super duper better now...so stop worry bout me everyone!!yesterday i was getting so sick...was such a long time i did not had high fever n vomiting..but i all got it yesterday!!!thanx to all my frenz taking care of me yesterday...especially d porridege..thx to OXY!!haha...u guys make me feel better..actually quite looking forward to dis weekend coz test finally over n i can finally relax myself...but hu noes?? i got sick!!i was so sick n i stil sit for my chemistry test...hope my mark ll b ok..

so...today is valentine...noo matter u r single or not...but still...wish u all happy valentine!!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

2009-02-07T11:54:00.003+08:00

ME N THE BIRTHDAY GIRL ON 6TH FEB!!

hey yun hui bou!!!!happy belated birthday to ya...sorry...din wish u birthday at here on time..coz cant get into it yesterday...sorry ya...hope u hav a sweet 18th!!!wish u all d best...enjoy ur day yesterday??take care ya...n miss u bou!!

n ther's another one hu had his birthday same day as her...

me n d birthday boy!!!

haappy belated to ya..地瓜！！！sorry...i wish ya a belated one o...hope u dun mind...haha..

wish u two
*happie alwayz..
*take care
*may ur wish come true!!

and..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!

happy moo moo year...

2009-02-03T17:11:00.005+08:00

dis was done by whye chyuan durin cny!!!

HAPPY MOO MOO YEAR!!hmmm...he ask me to uplaod dis pic on my blog so...大哥, i had upload dis edi!!happy??honestly is nice la..no cheating...UR IDEA??couldn't b ei..hee..

hmph..now...i am back in KTJ!!is stil my cny but i dun get it to celebrate it coz i am edi start my lessons n everything since yesterday...so i stop visiting!!!

after d hols end..i keep telling myself...
1)not to doze off or slept in class
2)finish my hw on time...
3)study hard!!!

my 3 big resolutions after new yr!!haha...yesterday, i managed to not to slep in class..so it was successful!!b4 cny holz my frenz kept saying me i kept sleping so now...i am goin to stop dis ''good'' habit...so tts wad makes me not to doze off in class anymore...

hope i ll fulfill=)

more pic ll uploaded...wait patiently plz^^

2009-01-24T07:51:00.002+08:00

yesterday...we juz finish our house interhouse cross country thingy..whoo...first time i ran dis kind of things which was i had to run about 4.7 km..haha...i get 38!!!which is call 'san ba' in chinese..haha..frenz were laughing...hee..although is not quite good but still it was my first time...hmph...after new yr we ll all den noe wad we get...ll we b d champion???i vy hope so coz i wan to go to sunway lagoon!!!I BLIEVE WE CAN!!!!

n d run make me so tired today..my muscles r in pain now...ANYWAY..

finally...today 24th can get to go back to miri tonite edi..haha..but i think i am d last one to go back among my frenz..haiz...if can i so wan to go bak earlier den them..hehe!!

lucky??

2009-01-21T09:24:00.002+08:00

today so lucky can i say tt??i am goin to hav 5 free period today juz need to attend 2 period..haha....so happie coz i wont feel so tired of dozing off in class..huh...

so after had my breakfast i went back to slep for bout half n hour n i am now here..hee..but today these free period i have to use to study as dis fri i am goin to hav my physics n chemistry test...oh boy!!i juz dunno what grades i am goin to take...especially chemistry..i almost slept in class for bout few days...aiks...reli gtg now...

hope i am doin good...!!

i failed...ha!!

2009-01-09T16:26:00.002+08:00

whoo...today i had attend the 3rd lessons for chemistry for tis week...b4 attend the lessons i had to kept me active as i almost slept in class for the previous 2 lessons..so i end up keep laughing all d way during d chemis lesson...haha..

n..the teacher ask us to do exp today...as now the exp we have to do it individually...oh my...when i heard it i was so terrified..ha!!i never do an experiment of my own..coz previously i always depend on other ppl as we always do it in group...so normally the teacher talk we talk too...but now...

haha...the first time i was so attentive i listen to the teacher on how to do it...i had to listen as today we were doin titration...worse still..i had forgot!!!

i failed when i did my first exp..but luckily the end of lessons d teacher said tt we ll do it on mon again as today was juz a practice...so relieved!!!

sooo...hope tt i ll hav an accurate result on monday n able to differentiate orange n yellow as i was confused today!!!

a whole new thing..

2009-01-06T10:21:00.002+08:00

hey hey!!! now i am in my skul computer lab..waiting for my double math lessons...at 11.40..hah..so drop by here..d very first post i post it up in dis college..haha..juz finish my first 2 physics lesson...was not bad..still looking forward to it..

hmmm...today is my 2nd day at skul..at d moment everything is fine...so u all do not need have to worry..hee...

ermm...i tihink tts all...juz feel happie now at last i can on9..hee..

dun miss me too muc!!!

weirdo...

2009-01-02T23:26:00.002+08:00

tml reli goin to fly!!!!

huh...reli got a weird weird feeling..juz cant describe..juz hope thr is a time machine!!i want to go back to d past....

oh boy..i juz reli cant slep!!!!though i reli wish i can slep now..

2008-12-30T00:01:00.002+08:00

today is tuesday already...dis saturday i am going to fly...
dunno wad is the feeling now...looking forward???happy??excited??sad??heavy heart??

hmmm...just complicated!!!

almost there.....

2008-12-16T15:03:00.001+08:00

today tuesday

then wednesday...

lastly thursday!!!

whoo...stil left 2 more days i am back in miri!!!!

i cant wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bye bye...see ya!!

2008-12-04T07:16:00.002+08:00

hey frenzies....

i am goin to fly dis evening to kuch till 18th of dis month...haiz...so looooong rite??thus, my blog goin to sleep here 4 the 2 whole weeks...haha...

so, c ya all in 2 weeks time....miss me ya!!!muahaha....

from

melia.

finaly!!

2008-11-27T23:37:00.005+08:00

whooo......finalllyyyy!!!!

everythings over...

my nightmare is over...

ll not hav dis kind of nightmare anymore too!!

no more hustle n bustle!!!

dis me...is the last day in this uniform..

n...no need to wash white shoes anymore..haha...

am superb happie today!!!

oh ya..frenz...dis is my first time i put my pic up here ei...haha..time to reveal myself???hoho...

getting closer n closer....

2008-11-21T15:05:00.003+08:00

Time flies....reaaaaaaaaaaal fast!!!!

altogether i hav 11 subjects...now 7 down n...

stil got 4 subjects to go..

biology

physics

chinese

lastly...EST!!!

*getting more n more happier each day....haha...(i think)*

final couuntdown...

2008-10-28T10:23:00.002+08:00

hmph...almost less den 14 days to my big examinations le...

wad can i do??

just need to study study study....n pray a lot...

haiz...reli regret last yr play too muc...coz now...

SUFFER!!!

ish...last min of preparations agian!stil got a chance to get wad i wan??hmph..impossible??possible???

10/10

2008-10-28T10:14:00.002+08:00

1010...a good number..
this day..my hamster(cash) had gone..
it had ran away from home..

sorry o..a gu wa, eddie, '有缘人‘,n jin...i din purposely lost ler...tt day actually wan giv a gu wa bak de..but how i noe..it suddenly disappear...dunno y...haiz..i still miss my cash...sorry guys..din take care properly of my cash...

sorrie....

it pays fot it..

2008-09-11T14:33:00.000+08:00

whoosh...dis time receive my result is like rotten egg...worse than dis i think...but honestly it pay for my hardwork...i din reli put muc effort in it...but still anger n depression stil grow inside my heart...haiz...i shud not angry actually coz i hav to 'pay' for it...
thus, i juz learnt a lesson how many percent u put in ur effort in ur study n u ll get tat percent in ur result...
so fair??

1 weeek time test is cumin up agian..i still hangin out here...no where to go...coz of my laziness...haiz...

嗨...

2008-08-27T15:41:00.002+08:00

终于，要来到考试的尾端。。。明天就是考完试的最后一天。。。
这次的考试我预测一定都考的一团糟。。明天考生物，还在这儿玩。。
我没心去读了。。。一直有种很累很烦的感觉。。
我不想读了。。。真的不想读了。。
如果我能说不用读就不读。。
那该多好??不是吗??

嗨 ..怎么办啊??在这样下去,我又完了..

无言...

2008-07-23T20:35:00.002+08:00

我有好多好多要想说的我。。。
可是，脑子里顿时空白。。。
我，无言。。

姐，原谅我吧。。真的友好多想说的话。。
可是，
不知从何开始。。。

23-6-2008

2008-06-24T16:44:00.001+08:00

这一天，我十七岁咯！！
今年过了一个很不平凡的生日哦。。。

开学咯。。

2008-06-09T15:29:00.002+08:00

开学咯！！
不敢爽还是不爽，都要去学校，不管懒惰还是不懒惰还是要去。。
好想今天不去学校，
可是没原因不去，
所以，
今天整天在学校就拿到一大堆的考卷。。。嗨。。

tremendously sad...

2008-06-02T01:19:00.003+08:00

vy upset...i juz knew tat i got a chance to play in penang, but the officers forgot aobut me..how can??dis yr is my laz yr, i reli do not have any chance to go oredi...y??i reli wanna go...to b a state player is a small wish tat i would reli wan...

now is all over..everything was juz too late...

i would rather loss den juz noeing tat i still got a chance to play...coz it juz makes me upset n angry n disappointed!!

finally

2008-06-01T23:28:00.001+08:00

my sis came back oredi....last nite!!!which was yesterday!!!

friday which was yesterday....

2008-05-24T22:35:00.002+08:00

yesterday...woke up at 6.00 am but not goin to skul..got up early to send my dear sis to the airport... for a interstate tennis competition...haiz...so sad i am not selcted to go..kinda disppointed...

dis was the first time tat my sis leave me alone...n need me to sleep alone in a bedroom...hai...one week noone to talk, noone to laugh...hai...was so bored...everytime is me who leave my sis alone...yeesh...reli bored la...wonder how i am goin to stay for dis one week!!!

but...honestly...reli happy tat u r goin...wish u all the best!!!u can do it...jia you!!!*goin to miss ya for a week...*wink

was the last day...

2008-05-24T22:24:00.002+08:00

sorry...few days after test now den now den update...hehe...
very relieved, no need to worry, no need to study so muc, no need make myself so stress...
but, vy worry i am not doin well...

but now,
i dun think so much about the result coz is juz make me disappointed when i thought back...

so...THURSDAY was the last day of test...so everyone muz b relaxing now!!

test test!!!

2008-05-03T17:24:00.002+08:00

sememster test is around the corener...
darn...how am i goin to study for just only dis few days??
plenty of revisions need to do,
plenty of subjects,
plenty, plenty, of things to do...
huh..
how can i cope??

but,
i just only got one wish,
i reli reli hope tat i ll do ll dis time.
coz..i cant bear the scoldings,
the nagging..
cant stand it!

but..
i noe tat is impossible for me juz to only wish,
i need to put some effort...
coz there ll be no good results without any hard work...
hai...

so...
now all i can do is just...
STUDY...

一次又一次。。

2008-04-27T01:35:00.003+08:00

不要一次又一次让我失望好吗？？
我很讨厌，
讨厌那失望的心情，
因为，
失望的心情一点都不好受。
也许，
你不知道。。。

不要再让我失望好吗？？

很想。。。

2008-04-27T01:17:00.003+08:00

为什么？？
你变了这么多。。
也许别人觉得你当初现在都一样，
但是我不觉得。
别问我为什么，
因为我也不晓得。

我很想告诉你，
可是，
我没有那个勇气，
不敢告诉你，
也不知为什么。
应该是怕你生气吧。。。
所以，
我选择了沉默。

我，
好想让你知道。。。

somehow...

2008-04-18T14:12:00.003+08:00

always tot tat u r the one tat treat me the best,
always tot tat u ll noe i am happy or sad,
always tot tat u noe what i am thinking,
always tot tat u noe everything about me.

but...
somehow,someway,
i am wrong dis time...

beginning,
i noe i am correct,
i judge u correctly.
but now,
u r different.
u have changed,
i saw it,
n i knew it.

wad can i do??
i just only can hope tat u wont change,
n tats all i can do...

啊。。我肥了。。。

2008-03-31T14:27:00.002+08:00

我肥了！！
才四天去一趟古晋。。回来美里。。原本松松的裤，穿了起来。。。紧紧的。。才知道我真的变肥了！！还不用紧，我还认为说应该是那个裤很久没穿了吧。。哈哈。。怎么知道，concert 的时候，在台上还给艳妮姐看到，说，我唱歌的时候。。。脸很圆哦。。。她说我肥了！！你应该在笑我吧。。。

wei 。。姐！！看到这个部落格的时候，不要笑咯。。我承认你的妹妹的确变肥了。。但我相信我还会瘦回去的哦。。

i'm back!!

2008-03-29T16:28:00.002+08:00

i'm back!!!since thurs for tennis competition...haha....and bcum so black...actually half of my face is white n the other part is black...haha...shud took a picture of it...but too ugly...

and dis time the result for my competition was so bad...oh gosh!!my last yr to represent miri n i cant go to the state level at penang...so sad.....but nvm...i noe my skill still dun reach there..so wad to do???hiak hiak...

熟悉

2008-03-12T23:13:00.000+08:00

昔日，
熟悉的背影，
熟悉的脚步声，
熟悉的声音，
熟悉的呼吸声，
我很肯定，
那是你。

如今，
那些熟悉的背影，
熟悉的脚步声，
熟悉的声音，
熟悉的呼吸声，
渐渐变地陌生，
我，不敢地确定那是你。

我想，
以后，
那些熟悉的背影，
熟悉的脚步声，
熟悉的声音，
熟悉的呼吸声，

我还知道
是你吗？？

不在乎。。

2008-03-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

之前的我，
是开心，
快乐。

如今的我，
演技的艺术越来越好，
我也不知道。

我可以在很伤心的时候，
告诉每个人，
我今天，
很开心，
甚至在我脸上
还可以给大家一个灿烂的笑容。

人人都认为我很开心，
可是，
告诉你们，
你们都错了。

有时那么开心，
往往都不知道，
心里有那么的难过。

也许，
现在，
你们都认为
我很虚伪吧。。。

可是，
我不在乎了。。。

especially for u!!!

2008-03-12T21:26:00.000+08:00

hey,my dear sis!!!
dis post is especially for u.....

wish u a

happy belated birthday!!!!!!

have a sweet 19:P

from ur sis...hamster!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

2008-03-07T14:55:00.000+08:00

wEEEwiaaaaaaaaAAAAAaaannnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY!!!

Wish u all the best....and may ur wish come true!!!!!!

祝你越来越美

越来越可爱>.<

错误的选择。。。

2008-01-25T14:29:00.000+08:00

最近，人人都问我。。。有去瑞狮团吗？？过年有出对吗？？他们都这样的问我。。。一直都认为我有参与。。。有的还问，你进那一组？你的组长是谁？？一连串的问题，其实我根本不能出队,虽然已经最后一年了....我真得很想出队阿..我很懊恼，很心烦，朋友们一旦提起瑞狮这两个字，有时还说瑞输团有多好玩，我的心情就会很失落。。就不知道为什么。。。也许我有会回想起去年的camp吧。。。我真的不知道怎样形容我的心情。。总之,我对我自己很失望...

我,简直是做了一个错误的选择,今天最后两节,老师没来,就陪shirley去礼堂看他们练狮...回到家,毛病又发作了,心情很低落,一直想为什么我不能去,虽然我已经知道为什么了...还一直想要是我去能怎样怎样...如果早知,那就我不要去礼堂...我真得很讨厌有这种心情...我想,要我怎样过年呢??

一个月了,每当朋友们要去瑞狮时,到现在我还是会很低落,我真的还不能原谅我之自己所犯的过错..

回来了。。

2007-12-16T23:01:00.000+08:00

我回了！！好开心。。。能够回来听到朋友的声音。。。能够看到朋友的脸！！哈哈。。一个星期离开我的家乡。。感觉上好像脱离了整个世界。。。什么都不知道！变成很lag。。hehe...一个星期感觉很短。。。但是蛮长的。。。一个星期发生了好多好多事情。。hmmm...是时候update。。哈哈。。。

睡不着。。。

2007-12-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

11.49pm...还没睡觉。。。所以到这里写我部落格。。其实这个时候我应该要去睡觉了。。。因为几个小时后要去中国的北京游玩了。。。hmmm...不知是什么心情。。。又不会很期待，又不会很伤心，又不会开心。。就是有种怪怪的感觉。。。嗨。。

怎么办啊？？我就是很不想去睡觉。。知道了！是不是我不舍得这里---美里呢？？真好笑，能去游玩反而不开心。。。你们应该是笑我笨吧。。就是有种方不下这里的感觉。。。哈哈。。。可笑。。。

好啦。。我看我真的要逼我自己去睡觉咯。。免的明天没精神玩。。朋友们，要想我哦。。。我会想你们的。。。哈哈！！

信心=信任？？

2007-12-08T15:42:00.000+08:00

信心和信任是一样的东西吗??我不喜欢人家对我没有信任没有信心...很傻吧??我就是很不喜欢...就不知道为什么...有时我还会想,我就是那么不值得别人的信任吗??

诚实。。。这两个字。。。记住！！

2007-11-10T17:01:00.000+08:00

在前几次的练习，看着你的球艺。。我100%的肯定你一定会大败我的...那时我的信心真的是少了一半!心想..也许我真的退步了吧!我承认我真的好怕,因为由此以来不成输给你..这个星期,我的手受伤了...练习的时间也减少了许多..那时我真的注定会输给你....

今天一早,我手还没完全痊愈,加上肚子又不舒服,背又酸,本来一心想打完第一场就算了...不要在打决赛了..我有想过...因为遇上了你..我真的好怕..也许我输不起吧..不过,想了好久,我下定决心跟你一较高低...虽然当时的我已经好累!果然不出我所料,我真的输给你了...当时我真的输得起,也忙开新的..因为分数我从4-1追上去4-4,然后从6-4追到了6-6...过后我输了...8-7!!讲真,我也没想到我会有这样的成绩....

可是过后,我才发现你的金牌,不是以你的势力来夺取的..原来,你并不知道诚实这两个字!真不明白,为什么要欺骗你的对方?? 你不是讨厌对方骗球的吗??难道你不知道做个好球员老实最重要的吗??我真的对你失望! 我真的很傻啊..很笨!为什么现在才发现?这次我输得很不甘愿!我对你改观了..我对我自己许下了承诺,没有输给你的第二次了!!还有一个比赛,我一定会替我自己讨回一个公道!这次,没那么给你骗了..你记住!

为了你以后,我真的希望你能记住诚实这两个字!

睡觉...但是又想讲话!!

2007-11-01T22:26:00.000+08:00

今天真的好累...跑上跑下....就这样度过了一整天在学校!今天留下来就是为了prefect 的东东的...做工的时候嘴巴一直的动,从来没停过...哈哈...其实,我们今天3.30 就可以回了...可是我们这一大群的朋友们就选择留下来一直bou bou bou...bou 了整个下午....还做了许多八卦的事..哈哈...但是收获不少的...懂了很多八卦东西...哈哈!!!就这样....讲了差不多整个下午...4.30 才回家...其实,当时的我已经好累...好想睡个午觉!!

不知从何时起,应该是考试开始了吧...就养成了睡午觉的习惯...哈哈...才发现,我真的需要睡个午觉, 不然真的好累...哈哈...

第一...

2007-11-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

今天的第一次都很不好啊！！第一天的考试过后，今天的第一节，今天的第一张派下来的考卷，真的是今天所有第一次，竟然派下来我国的历史！！伤心啊。。看到了我的分数过后！！才拿个43回来。。真不知道这次的历史是怎样考的. 真令我太失望了...不过,蛮庆幸的没有不及格..哈哈...我只在那不及格的边缘!!其中一个原因也应该怪在没有花特别多的时间去读吧...所以才有这样的成绩.....

嗨..我看我还真得把我的历史修读好来...免得明年的分数更见不得人...哈哈!!

我好累...

2007-10-17T23:32:00.000+08:00

我从来没有这种感觉...一种快要崩溃的感觉...一种无奈的感觉....一种心烦的感觉...我不知道为什么...也许是因为考试要到了,然后有永远读不完的书在等着我去读....我真的是没有时间了...拜一要考历史了..我还没把它读完...怎么办??我知道没有人可以帮我解决这问题..只有我自己才能解决它...嗨..我真的是快要崩溃了...我无法再承受这种压力..我好累!!

我想选择放弃..不要为这次考试而拚,但是我做不到!因为如果我选择了放弃...我知道后果是什么...那个后果我知道我承担不下...过后我会觉得很不值得...所以..我还是选择了不放弃...坚持到底!!有一点...我实在很不明白...无论我多伤心多心烦...我都会在我脸上带上一个笑容...这样好吗??有时我觉得我太逞强..我很讨厌这样的自己...

我真的好累...要崩溃了..我好希望这次的考试过得快点..好让我有时间的到处游荡...松解心情..

这世界真得很小吗？？

2007-10-07T00:05:00.000+08:00

整十年的朋友没见。。。。竟然就在有一个晚上他在msn来向我问候。。吓了我一跳！！还蛮开心的。。十年不见。。。完全没有你任何消息。。。竟然我们又相遇。。。好巧哦！！原来你那时候二年级就去伦敦了。。。

回想起当年。。大概一年级吧。。你坐在我旁边。。我们常常用英文沟通。。。然后一直害我给老师骂。。因为她要我跟你用华文沟通。。。。。真搞笑！！最幼稚的事。。我们每次为了一些小东西就吵架。。。哈哈。。回想过去。。。真好笑！！

嗨。。。十年不见。。。竟然遇到你这个朋友。。。这世界真得很小。。。哈哈。。。我还不错吧。。还没把你忘记。。。

不知怎么形容的心情

2007-09-29T00:42:00.000+08:00

就是那一天，整天静静的，寂寞的，感觉孤单的我，可以说是我由此以来讲最少话的一天。我真的不知道为什么。。。心乱了吗？？不知道。。每个人问我为什么今天这样安静，我答不出来。

我认为我很多疑，因为他们都不告诉我什么事发生了。。。他们隐瞒我。。。我知道他们不告诉我都是为我好。。。可是当时的我。。。很想知道那个故事。。。

还有，她问我几道题目而已，我也不知怎么回答。我只知道我只需要打一个有或者没有就可以了。。。可是，我就是不知道怎么答她。就这样几句话，几句问题一直在我脑海里环绕着。。。一整天的心情就很不爽。。我的心真的是很乱很烦。。。

那天，我真的要崩溃了。。。。

雨。。。

2007-09-13T16:00:00.000+08:00

凉凉的雨水滑过手臂指尖，
心情就会变好。
空气里泛散开的，全部是好心情的味道。

雨，
带走了我的烦恼，
带走了我的忧愁，
带走了我的眼泪。

所以，
我偏爱下雨，
永远不停的雨，
也从不期待雨停的时候。

我只想要一场永远不停的雨，
为我下的雨.
我所需要付出的只是等待雨的来临.

明天要到了。。。

2007-07-07T22:11:00.000+08:00

long time din update blog lo...but today can on9 so i come here update lo..hai..tml is a big day to me n all the pbsm members n ajk-----Annual Parade!!huh...still left few hours to reach tml...dunno how i feel now...angry??disappointed???sad??actually i am very 烦..not only u gary...but most of us!!i noe u r more pressure den us...but wad to do??we cant change oredi as dis is the last day...so tml we, everyone muz try our very best...tonite dun think so muc everyone!!take care...haiz...reli stres dis week...i juz feel tat the standard is not good enuf...reli worry about it!!!i noe..if the results tml is bad...shu ling n irene muz be disappointed!!!but wad to do??is meaningless to think now i noe...in here i would like to apologize to u 2 first especially shu ling...u muz be angry if u see our marching dis days....

anyway, tml we ll try our best marching!!!我相信我们一定可以的！！

miserable....

2007-06-21T16:55:00.000+08:00

dis few days i reli feel so so so..no i think i can say extreme miserable!!i suddenly can feel the pressure...so 'huge'!!!i feel that i feel so fan seems tat i still have lots of things not yet done n need to be done by dis weeks....huh....i even cannot went to sleep dis days...i wondered...wad make me feel so miserable....

dis morning, when into 4A...all the faces were so black n even wif sore eyes!!the qi fen is so different den before...i feel quite bad too dis morning!!because they said they wanted to quit as a prefect...n dis is the big news to me!!!everyone were very ok yesterday but suddenly to day bcome like diss....WHY!!!???i reli hope tat they ll not quit i hope tat they can give themselves a chance...is just only probation!!!i believe tat it ll be muc more better after the probation..just 6 weeks!!!take it as a challenge!!i noe it is vy pressure to us tho ur studies r quite well my fren...

but...i noe tat i ll not quit so easily 因为我知道，我不怕选择，只怕后悔！！朋友，对自己有信心把！！bou ren 不应该这样就放弃。。。这只是我的意见。。。。

心情舒服多了。。。

2007-06-19T16:53:00.000+08:00

i feel comfortable now...at last!!!because my mom at last noe my bad results as i told her dis morning..n dis is the first time shi did not shout at me...!!!i used to be very scared n a kind of feeling reli bad n empty...and i feel reli pressure!!!huh....but now at last i reli feeling very comfotable!!!i noe tat noone ll noe about my feeling...noone ll not have tat kind of feeling or tat situation...i THINK!!!tell u guys...the feeling is very terrible n horror...u ll feel reli bad n disappointed...

充满了怀恨

2007-06-19T16:46:00.000+08:00

i hate ppl recently!!!dunno y...honestly i never hate ppl so so much!!!am i reli bad...or i am just moody???sometimes i think...are u a true fren to me...??i hate u a lot...y u like to gossips everywhere...and u even like to spread rumours???y r u like tat???dun u noe this attitude is bad??huh...i noe is not just only me but everyone...i think!!!u r just a spoilbread...spoil a person name!!tats all...in dis all not very nice...i hate dis kinds of fren...i have full of anger...u even lie to me...y u wan to do tat??is there dun have any better things to do???u r reli annoying u noe...???and some of them are so noisy to tat kind of level i wan to leave tat place reli soon!!!yeesh....reli hope tat u ll change ur attitude...i just hate it...

可以说，今天才是我真真的假期。。。

2007-06-07T09:27:00.000+08:00

me..long time din write blog le...but i reli wan to write but i cant evrytime came back home is late...haha...actually everyday got things to write...time reli pass so fast!!4 days of tennis camp....3 days of pbsm traning...has gone...and today is oredi the thursday!!!i can say tat 1 week wif camps n the rest plus n minus i only has few days of holiday!!!huh...reli hope for another week!!!but it is juz...impossible!!!hiak hiak...today i wake up very late compared to laz week...but...got ntg to do!!!reli got a bit 矛盾!!haha...wan holiday but too free now...i reli neeed to 珍惜dis few days!!!haha...ok ok...i need to stop now!!see...i say tat i cant rite blog sometimes is because someone need to use the computer...hah...tats all!!

终于渡过了这一天。。。

2007-05-24T14:38:00.000+08:00

whoo...today!!finally goin to finsh...dis morning having add math test...wow like like...i dun even how to do...kinda dissapointed...and again regret!!but i dun bothyer muc now since i had it over alaready!!i noe dis test is reli very bad to me...i think i will goin to be the worst test n result in my whole life...
now almost get to june...half of the year have gone...reli fast!!but dunno whether is meaningful or not...but i never regret...just regret for din listen in class...reli!!
now...still left one more day to freedom...i can say still have 1 hour of test...after tml my nightmare has finally over!!but...honestly i reli hope tat i can do some useful things during the holiday..i hope i can catch up in my studies...i dun wan to repeat the same mistake again!!i just hope tat i got the heart study in dis holiday!!i noe my fren muz be say dis is impossible!!!coz i am not the type..haha...but just wait n see!!

just feel depressed....

2007-05-17T14:09:00.000+08:00

hmph...wad a bad bad day!!!dis morning test bio...sejarah....and i noe it is like rotten!!!kinda feel regret in the past i din study hard n listen in class...kinda guilty...but wad to do???it is already history...but tat...nvm....dis afternoon juz received a letter tat i am goin to kuching play off for the perak next month...and i cant make it..juz knew tat i muz be loss in the game..so wad for??but decision has make...just feel reli sad bout it...hmph...even just now go 4 tennis training my fren was asking..y i dun wan to go...but i explain there ll be no one understnad my feeling but is just me!!feel so terrible...can feel tat my eyes were fill wif water...reli envy them tat they can go to perak and have fun...but i noe now i am just impossible!!!no0w,i set my aim that i am goin to practise hard for next year...i reli ll try my best!!!i wanna go next year!!and i try to forget all this sadness...and get my mind back to study!!

study???reli worse...tml has physics test n now my brain r just empty!!!dunno wad i can do now in this last minutes...anyone ll guide me???i reli hope tat i can prepare it earlier...but reli no use to regret now...rite???now i just need study study n study...all formulas have to noe how to apply it...but it is just still...I DUNNO!!at last...i am goin to give up wif it...hate of study...hate of failure...honestly i hate fail and scared..imagine i have to face my mom wif my poor result...HO DARE ME???it was just totally nervous n scared for the tml test...but no use....!!!

today i feel reli so depressed...dissapointed...n full of sadness...reli hope tat today ll quickly just get over n start a new day again...but...i cant control!!

tml start heading to sibu!!!

2007-05-01T16:58:00.000+08:00

hmmm....dis week juz go 2 skul 1 day...and goin to start miss all my frens here lo...coz i goin 2 sibu tml...and is 7.00 have to reach st.co!!oh gosh, dis few days i cant even have a proper sleep hope i can sleep till late late...but as it was the other way round!!wake up so early dis few days and went for tennis in the morning!!make me doze of in the morning!!n in the afternoon tennis again!!!i had to prepare 4 my competitions in sibu!!sometimes juz think tat izzit worth??i juz feel tat i dun even have the gut to win them...and friends i noe is impossible tat i could win!!dis trip i ll juz take an experience and fun!!so u all dun expecet win from me..haha!!besides..i have not beed study 4 dis few days and the sememster test is coming up after 1 week when i come back!!kinda scared...i juz reli hope tat dis time i can do well!!hmmm....but anyway i will try my best!!!and everyone i wanna to tell u all tat i am coming back on sunday not saturday!!n those 5 who r goin to have the interunit competiton, gambate!!!u all can do it!!!if i have got any yime i ll reach there in the afternoon...jia you!!!!get back the challenge trophy once again!!!u all can do it...jia you!!!do ur best!!

我救了你！！哈哈。。。

2007-04-23T17:11:00.000+08:00

hey...今天下午我"朋友"没有上课哦。。。但是有我救了你，所以应该像我说声谢谢。。但是要和我好好配合我哦。。不然我也惨了。。。哈哈。。。你自己知道哦...嘻嘻...还有,说真真今天所有老师脾气怪怪的...哈哈...

好累哦。。

2007-04-12T14:42:00.000+08:00

hey..今天我用华语了！！我觉得今天我好累。。但是也还瞒高兴的咯。。哈哈。。今天我去网球比赛。。刚好天气好凉哦。。但没想到我赢了。。。所以今天我不必去打了。。。好高兴哦。。明天才再打。。哈哈。。。但是好想念我的朋友们哦。。在这里一个人很闷。。。还好等一下又补习。。哈哈。。bou team 有想我吗？？我觉得你们是不会想的啦。。对不对？？但没关系。。嘻嘻。。。淑玲我没有再搬上的生活是不是静很多？？hmmm...我看今天就到止结束吧，没东西写了。。再见！！

the first day n the first time!!!

2007-04-11T16:11:00.000+08:00

hmmm...the first day!!!i finally have create my blog...but the first post i using english la...ok shu ling???haha...the 2nd time use chinese liao...k???hee..shu ling n vivian hav keep askin me to keep writing blog...n finally!!!haha...but still dun reli noe how to use...Hmmm...today is reli a sleepy day 4 me...omost dozed of in class but i din...haha...kinda nervous too tat tml is the tennis competition...dunno who is goin to be my opponent!!!r they strong???haha...still dunno...hope i can get into the final round...haha...so frenz...wish me luck!!!haha...ok stop here now...tats all 4 today!!!